Well sorry folks but I have tried to write everyday and I know that would be easier but been busy and hectic.
Well I am going to try and write everyday. I had a fab weekend with family ,fun and activities and a little bit of normality for a couple of days and people telling me to stop and rest instead of asking me if am I alright to which I reply (I am fine).
I started getting on with my reports but time is flying away and things are taking to long.. I feel so crap. my world my life is falling apart. Since Monday this week I just keep crying hysterically which is hard..
Well some good news eldest of to Uni ... To Coventry not all my hopes but she is happy and I know she will do well ..... I want her to have a great life and the ability to cope.
The youngest keeps me smiling.
I just worry about finances and how I am going to cope and manage.
We are trying to get to get services in to help.
Well this week another 16 hour chemo session which as usual does not go as easy as expected. Well get to the hospital lucky this time straight to the ward so as I thought I would be able to settle down into a routine and get on with some work well not so. Nurse came in and went through usual checks then to get the cannula in well first try in one arm , 2nd try other arm oh what fun... she is only has 2 tries and has to get another nurse so another wait.....so her we go a wait and then another nurse.. try one 2nd try of we go but could not get the blood trough the cannula... so in to the vein in the other arm to take blood................next wait for blood results.
Then bloods back looking good of we go ...heat pad for the first chemo and then.....on to the next ones over night.
I have to measure my out put so they make sure my Kidneys work they are so do not worry very well so not much sleep.
I am going to stop this for tonight before I depress you all to much... I am going to get some sleep and more tomorrow hopefully more up beat love to all my followers love you all xxx
Hi Nat - just back in the country and catching up. Thanks for the continuing posts - it's difficult to know what questions to ask, is it intrusive, are we being insensitive etc... so your posts are great and informative.
ReplyDeleteMacmillan should help with money worries so as easy as it sounds for me, try not to worry, you concentrate on the getting better bit!
If you ever feel like talking just holler - I know we're not the closest relations in terms of how much we see you, but if you want to just sound off, talk, cry, I'm happy to listen!
Hugs for you all xx