Well it has been a couple of weeks since I last wrote... Well busy times with Easter and then the wedding not mine THE WEDDING lots of times and lots of fun. This really tires me out. I am afraid I am very good at the front.
Doing well as can be expected look fantastic.Tan from the nice weather... down side is put lots of weight back on think a lot of water retention ... going through the menopause so quickly is not helping.. bones ache..
I keep forgetting that it was only November I had the op... road to recovery is rocky but I am sure I will get there in the end.
Another CT scan next week , there goes another day of my life.
Still have discharge gross .. cannot wait to get it sorted. Joint pains ... feel absolutly exhausted and feeling off colour not sure why.
Well it has been also a sad month for the loss of a great man who I had the oppertunity to work with . Unfortunatley when people die around me at present it brings on very unusual feelings... my thoughts to family and friends. Also the young girl I spoke of in my last blog is also at peace.
Well had the chance to meet up with collegues and friends this week that I have not seen in a while, that was good.
Also thinking of writing a bucket list ... not sure where to start what do I want to do before I die .. not that I am going any where yet just incase any of you have any thoughts on a good knees upand any way you are not having one with out me.
I am looking for some inspiring ideas... just to give me some inpiration.
Well I could start at the end and work back sounds like fun .. I know for some this is all a bit much and think I am being morbid .... but I can assure you all I am very positive.... tired and fed up of everything but positive.
I did have the idea of selling everything and buying a motor home and travelling the real world ( but Jerry said I need to join it )
He also thinks that I need a job not that I am fit to do one just that I think he thinks I am not sure 9 sorry ramblin)
Well youngest has started fencing at the club doing really well.... she keeps saying Mummy I do not want you to die...... tough one that... keep smiling.
Need a holiday for family time where to go what to do..... Jerry away all the time is hard.... Everything for him has gone back to normal not even mid week visits home work is busy...
Well we are fine just tough as when we try to talk he changes the subject his way of dealing .. we will get there as I say he want everything to be rosey so if he keeps it that way it will be fine. sorry for the mone . Fed up of long night on my own .... official mone over with..
Ok well I think I need to get some sleep... see you all very soon love to you all god bless xxx
Natalie, I admire you so much being willing to be so open about all of this. You are entitled to moan all you want!! You have a free pass in my book.
ReplyDeleteI like the RV idea, Jerry's sense of humor never seems to surprise me :) I can imagine how difficult it is talking to Sydney about all of this. She's a smart young lady and I agree that the best route is the honesty one.
Hope to see you soon! Love you, Linda